Once upon a crisp winter day, I was walking down the sidewalk in my then hometown of Colorado Springs. Ahead of me, I spied a shimmery blue-green-purple iridescent object, much like the colors you see on peacock feathers, sparkling in the sun. It was stunning even from a distance!
With mounting curiosity and excitement, I approached, eager to pick it up and discover what secrets this mystery object held. Some have said I have an unnatural fascination with all things shiny and sparkly. This may or may not be true. …Okay, it’s true. I admit it. They say that’s the first step, right?
As I approached, I was still unable to determine what this thing was. I slowed my pace as I drew near, marveling at its beauty, until finally, I was upon it. Still perplexed, I bent down to investigate, intending to pick it up. Did I mention its allure? It was magical!
Imagine my shock when, as I reached out, it burst forth into my face! I could swear my heart just about leapt through my chest! It certainly made a valiant effort to do so. But after the initial shock, I realized what I had discovered…A pile of shit with a swarm of feasting flies covering it! I don’t believe I’ve gone from glee to horror in the time it takes to blink before or since that moment.
As shocking as this was, it provided me a great insight: You can cover your negative emotions and beliefs with positive thinking and affirmations, but until you accept or let go of these feelings and beliefs, you have nothing more than a shiny pile o’ poo that’s going to blow up in your face someday. And that won’t be pretty!
As much as we try to cover up what we perceive as negativity rather than dealing with it, we can’t. But oh, how we try! Shopping, drinking, TV, video games, sex, Facebook, drugs, and even affirmations. We do all of these and more in a desperate attempt to not feel what we think is so wrong inside of us. And it just doesn’t work.
When you’ve built your house on a foundation of shit, it’s gonna stink. No two ways about it. You have to get in there and clean it up. As much as I would like to pretend otherwise, it’s something I struggle with daily. It’s no easy task to look at what I’ve built my house on, let alone let it go. What if my house crumbles? That may not be such a bad thing…Then I can build the house of my dreams!